Have you ever found yourself praying really hard for a situation you are in?
Maybe it’s about making a decision about a new job, a move to another state, or a relationship decision. Or maybe it’s while you are waiting for test results from the doctor…
Let me walk you through a moment I had. And I stress ‘moment’ because it’s amazing what can happen in a moment…
A few months ago I went to the doctor for a routine physical exam. I returned two days later to get my signed physical form stating that I was in perfect and excellent condition. While I was there, I decided I would have my blood pressure checked. So the nurse told me to follow her out of the waiting room… Let me state that at this point I’m in a great mood… I mean, I’m giving high-fives to the nurses and chest bumps to the doctors.. I mean I’m in a great mood, bouncing off the walls and whistling. I’m pretty sure I had pockets full of sunshine…
The nurse straps my arm into the machine to check my blood pressure and then says, “Oh yeah… something funky showed up in your blood work. You have elevated liver enzymes. I don’t think I would worry though, because they can cut it right out. The doctor wants to see you right away so he can talk it over with you.” – And those were her exact words.
My response was this, “………….”
And I was thinking, “Cut what outta what outta who?”
You could hear crickets in the room and I’m pretty sure I saw a few tumbleweeds floating behind the nurse…
All in a moment.
I then found myself being scheduled for an ultrasound to check for liver cancer, then I found myself with a needle in my arm as nurses took 75 gallons of blood so I could be tested for HIV, Hepatitis (a,b, and c), Autoimmune Hepatitis, multiple different parasites, mononucleosis, and because of other symptoms- I was scheduled for an MRI on my brain….
All in a moment.
I then had to do what nobody likes to do in this situation: wait.
It’s a very humbling period of time. A time where you literally don’t know if your time here is up. A time of reflection and a time where you are thinking about all the things you haven’t accomplished. Wondering… is this really it for me? It’s a moment where it’s basically you and God. Your family can love you and your friends can support you. But only your God can offer that unfathomable dimension where you come to terms with your life and death, and understanding that the time spent on earth is very miniscule in perspective of Eternity.
We become so short-sighted by our problems and situations with work, family-conflicts, traffic jams, petty misunderstandings, and often times our own pride.
Then… that moment happens.
It’s in these moments that God snaps His fingers and says, “Hey, look at Me. Look down the road. See the big picture.”
“It’s these moments that seem so ordinary to outsiders or those just watching, but become so extraordinary when you enter them.”
While I am still unsure of the cause of this health issue, I can thankfully say it isn’t caused by any of the aforementioned problems.
It’s in these moments we gain insight, perspective, understanding, wisdom and vision… We are commanded to live our lives to the fullest.
And it’s all about embracing the moments we have been given.
Seek them. Live them. Enjoy them.
And of course… Shut up and smile.
~Andrew Stout